I was thinking today about my goals. My first goal is to get below 230. I have not been below 230 in years and always get close but then hit a wall. After I get below that my next goal will be below 200. Then I hope to break 170 because that is the lowest I have ever been as an adult.
My highest weight ever was around 2 year ago at 276 pounds. At that weight I started to freak out. I was getting so close to 300 and I had told myself I would never get to 300 because that is really fat. Now why in the world could I be ok with staying around 250 but 300 was just too much for me? Most people would never let themselves get to 200 much less 250 or 276! I don't know why 300 woke me up but I am glad that it did. It is hard enough needing to lose 100+ pounds so I can not imagine having to lose more than that.
Right now I do not have a scale so I have not weighed since I began this diet. Part of me wants to see the numbers but then part of me is liking just losing the weight and not worrying every week what the number is going to be. I have to go to the doctor's office tomorrow to pick up Jeremiah's prescription for him so I think I am going to weigh while I am there. I know that I have lost weight since I can wear clothes that did not fit me before. I am secretly, well not so secret now, hoping that I have lost around 8 lbs. I think that it will be a boost to me to see in black and white that I have lost pounds.
I have been keeping up my walking and it is getting easier and easier everyday. I can now walk a mile with no problem and in fact find myself going further and further. The only drawback has been adding the extra time needed to walk more. I want to start walking in the mornings again instead of at night. That way I get the exercise done and over with and whatever happens in the day will not interfere with my exercise. It is a work in progress and I am still finding my own groove.
What to say - My heart is not in blogging right now, but with those asking if I am okay and for an update, I decided to write something today. Am I okay? No, not really...
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