I must start out by saying I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I am now trying to get healthy and want to get to a reasonable weight and stay there. I do not think I will ever be "skinny" but I would be happy with a size 12. Deep down I would like to get down to around an 8 but in reality I know I would be thrilled at even a 12.
At the first of this year I started to exercise and watch what I ate. When I had gone to the doctor back in November he had given me a prescription for Topamax, which is normally for migraines and seizures but is also used off-label for weight loss. I went to the pharmacy to get it filled and found out that even the generic costs $250 a month! There is just no way that I can afford that right now. My mother had said she would help with the cost but that was when we were thinking maybe $100 a month. I didn't go back to the doctor until March 2 and he then told me he has another option for me and prescribed Adipex. I wasn't really sure what Adipex was until I got home and googled it. I found out it is phentermine and is what I had taken back in 1997-1998 when I had lost around 60 pounds. I instantly got excited and really motivated. I feel like I did back then. I am determined to get the weight off and this time no matter what, I am going to make sure that I keep it off.
At the doctor's appointment I weighed in at 254. It has now been 2 weeks but I am not sure what I weigh because I do not have a scale yet. I had one but had given it to my mother and she informed me that it had quit working and she had to throw it out. I do know my clothes are loose and that I have been able to fit into some shirts I bought last August. The shirts were too small when I bought them but I never got around to returning them. I am glad I was lazy and never made it to the store since I now have some new clothes.
In addition to the diet and exercise I must figure out why I have continued to keep this much weight on for so many years. I am hoping that this blog will help me to explore myself and assist in discovering feelings I have pushed deep down somewhere. There has to be a reason I am overweight and I really want to find out what it is.