Well guys and gals I did it, this afternoon I went and ran. The first week of C25K you are supposed to run for 60 seconds and then walk for 90 seconds. The first 60 second run I made it but barely. The rest of the run I had to take it a little shorter. I ended up running for 30 seconds followed by 90 seconds of walking. I was not going to give up and figured that starting there was better than nothing. I figure next week I can move to running for 40 seconds and keep increasing from there. At first I kind of felt a little bad but then I asked myself what the hell are you upset about? I had gotten up and actually ran. I completed the entire trail which is 1.5 miles and it took me 23 minutes and that is including the 5 minute warm-up walking.
I have until August 28th to train so I am thinking that taking it a little slower will be ok and that I will get there eventually so even if I have a longer journey that is alright. I mean a few months ago I was not even walking a mile, much lone running anything at all. I think that I put a lot of pressure on myself and this time I am just going to rejoice in my new active lifestyle and healthy eating and know that I am making positive changes and that is what matters.
I went by my parent's house after my run. My Dad happened to be there and commented that he sees I just went for a walk. I told him no that I went for a run and the look on his face was priceless. I know that I shocked him. He said that is great and I told him about the 5K and we talked about running. He was telling me how once you start running most people just fall in love with it and seem to really get into it. He was very supportive and I can tell he is very happy just seeing me up and at 'em instead of just laying around all the time.
My sister got home a little while later and I was telling her about my run too. Turns out that Old Navy, where she works, is having a family 5K walk in May for their employees and family members. She said she had not signed up but that now she will. I told her definitely that I know I can walk it for sure. She is going to take the stroller and bring my nephews and my mom said that she and my dad will go as well. When I told Jeremiah about it he said of course to count him in as well. It really feels good to be influencing the family to join in and get active as well. Last Friday Jeremiah, my sister, my 2 nephews, my mom and I all went to the Dallas Zoo for the afternoon. We walked all over the place and had a lot of fun. I can remember a time that just walking that place would kill me but I have stayed even longer if the zoo would not have been closing.
My mom said that she can not wait to see my progress and that it is going to be cool to track it and see how strong I get. I like having another focus besides just the weight. Because really for me this has always been about feeling better and having more energy. Sure, I want to look better and be able to buy "regular" clothes but my husband loves me the way that I am now and he always makes me feel so beautiful so the actual weight has never been my main priority. But I would be lying if I didn't love seeing the scale go down because it sure does feel good. That brings up the subject of fat acceptance and I do want to write about that but that is a post all on its own.
So until next time - Say goodbye to fat and hello to fit!
What to say - My heart is not in blogging right now, but with those asking if I am okay and for an update, I decided to write something today. Am I okay? No, not really...
4 hours ago