I can't believe how time has just been flying by. It has already been way over a month since I really started my new way of life. And let's see I think at least 2 months of exercising now on a consistent basis. I went to the Dr. on April 13 and I was down to 237! I had really been hoping to bee at 234 but I wasn't too far off and I am so proud of what I have accomplished this far. I can say right now that I am at the lowest weight that my husband has ever seen me and we have been together for over 6 years.
The Dr. was so excited and asked me what in the world happened. I told him it is the Adipex. He told me it isn't just that. He said that he has had tons of patients gone on it and not lose a thing. I told him that one day I just woke up and knew that I wanted a change. I was ready and I could just feel it, you know? I don't know if anyone else has experienced this but for me it is like a huge light came on and I just got it, as Oprah says an "Ahh- ha moment." I feel so different and I can't even really explain it. I think is where someone has to get before they can really change. And I do not just mean with weight. I also mean with a drug addiction, a gambling problem, or any other vice. You have to finally really truly want to change, otherwise it just is not going to happen. Or even if you do change it is just short lived and then you fall off the wagon.
I believe I mentioned before that I had to get some new jeans and ended up in a size 20, down from a 24. Well, now the size 20 are getting too big. Luckily I have 30 days to exchange them because it has just been 2 weeks and I already need an 18. I hope that doesn't sound terrible, returning them like that, but darn it I can't just keep buying brand new jeans every 2 weeks! That is the reason I only bought one pair. Jeremiah had wanted me to buy a couple of pairs but I told him then that I am losing so quick it would be pointless. I am giving all my old clothes to Jeremiah's son's mom (in other words Jeremiah's ex-girlfriend). Do you think that is weird? I know she needs clothes and doesn't have a lot of money to buy anything. And a small part of me is very proud that I do not need the clothes anymore and that I am smaller than her. I know very petty of me and I shouldn't feel that way but I do. She is at least as big as I was, I am sure she was in a 3X top and who knows about pants. She said she would take anything that I can give her and if it doesn't fit she will pass it on to her friends. I have clothes going all the way up to size 30.
As a matter of fact when I was at the Dr. one of the things he brought up was how it wasn't long ago that I weighed 276, then I had gotten down to 260 and then almost to 2450 but then I shot back up to 267 and then started this diet out at 254. So I do have a wide range of clothing sizes. I used to have tons of stuff in the 18-20 range as well but a few years ago I gave up and didn't think I would ever get back down to that size and got rid of everything I had. I was sick of keeping up with so many clothes that I could not wear anymore.
On Friday night Jeremiah and I went grocery shopping. So far all I had been eating was Healthy Choice, Lean Cuisine, and Smart Ones tv dinners. Well this week I decided to just a few of those and mainly get "real" food. So this will be an interesting week.
I bought some apples, tangerines, lettuce, tomatoes, yogurt, whole wheat pita pockets, flat ones (low calorie italian flavor), smoked turkey and smoked chicken sandwich meant, turkey legs (Jeremiah is going to grill them out), a very small steak for me and a bigger steak for Jeremiah (also going to grill them out), chicken breasts (italian flavor), tilapia, pork chops, steamed veggie bags for the microwave (we got corn; green beans; medley with garlic, carrots, and broccoli; and a medley with snap peas, potatoes, and red peppers), some light chocolate soy milk, Fiber One cereal (raisin honey crunch), and some Fiber One granola bars in chocolate peanut butter. I liked the chocolate and oat bars better and will get those again next time. Jeremiah also bought him some string cheese, cupcakes, twizzlers, skittles, snack-size drumsticks, baked beans, ramen noodles, and pizza.
I cooked dinner Sat night and it was pretty darn good. I baked the chicken breasts and fixed the corn. Then I sliced up 2 apples, sprinkled them with cinnamon and sugar and baked at 250 degrees for an hour until crisp. They turned out really yummy and satisfied my sweet tooth. I don't crave sweets very often but I had read about fixing these apple crisps in this months Shape magazine and I had to try them. Jeremiah even said he liked them. So, one night of cooking down and the rest of the week to go. I am not much of a cook so this big for me. Jeremiah is normally the cook in our household. Well at least he will be grilling out the turkey legs and steak.
I have also started the 7-Day Bootcamp from sparkpeople.com. So far it is going well and I will write more on that later. I really like the sparkpeople website and it has tons of great tips, free workout videos, and ways to track everything all for free! You can not beat that.
What to say - My heart is not in blogging right now, but with those asking if I am okay and for an update, I decided to write something today. Am I okay? No, not really...
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